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Tuesday, December 4, 2012

"You bad to me, so bad to me"

I bet, these 2 months are killing me. November and December. I didn't hate it though. Saya sebenarnya rindu si A dan si B. Last year I feel this pain because I miss si A so much. And this year I feel this pain again because of the same thing. Saya rindu si A dan B. Awal tahun ritu, saya berazam taknak rapat dengan sesiapa yang beza umur. Tapi saya degil...saya kawan rapat juga dengan si B. She was a good sister to me though.  But...it changed..a few weeks before school holidays. Saya tak tahulah kenapa. I asked si B. And she said, "Sorry sesangat sekarang *her names* dah sombong dengan Anis. Saya admit saya sombong. Busy sangat nowadays" Jadi saya pun okaylah. Maklum lah saya ni kan budak habis PMR. Semua form yang lain ada exam. Saya pun bagilah space dekat dia. Tapi yang saya pelikknya, kenapa dia mcm avoid dari saya? Saya tak tahulah si B ni buat-buat tak nampak atau memang tak nampak masa saya senyum and lambai tangan dekat dia. Biasalah, budak habis PMR kan..merayau satu sekolah je la. Dia lalu depan saya pun taknak pandang langsung. Tak silap saya saya tak buat  salah apa-apa pun. Saya tegur dia yang taknak layan. Salah siapa. My friends keep asking me "Kau dengan si B tak okay ke? Dulu bukan korang dua baik?" Saya nak jawab apaaa? Jadi saya pun jawab lah si B ni busy. Sebab tulah dia tak layan saya. And this one situation yang buat saya wondering sampai sekarang. We went to school with the same bus. Ada one time tu saya tegur si B ni dalam bus. Tapi...dia buat donno je. Lepas tu saya pun dah jarannnngggg nampak si B ni. Yesterday, I asked my friend "What will you do if you miss someone you used to talk? Tapi dia dah sombong sikit ah dengan kau. Macam uncomfortable around you. Buat kau macam strangers..What will you do? But you miss him/her so much" and he replied " Orang mcm tu kau takyah rindu. Dia sombong dengan kau kan. Just move on dude. Forget him/her. They hurt you. Its better these ways." Betul juga apa yang kawan saya cakap. You hurt me. Buat apa saya nak ingat si B. But..I can't. You must've a reason why you did this to me.


Psssssttt; I miss si A and B .

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