Less than 48 hours

And what is that?! Mestilah PMR result. And don't forget to wish me luck awak-awak comel sekalian. Oh. Its 0010 already. Need my beauty sleep. Adios people >W< Goodnight. Sleep tight :)

BTOB

 Korean: 비투비; acronym for Born to Beat) is a seven member male group from South Korea formed in 2012 by Cube Entertainment. The group consists of Seo Eunkwang, Lee Min Hyuk, Lee Changsub, Lim Hyunsik, Peniel D. Shin/Shin Dong-geun, Jung Ilhoon and Yook Sungjae. The group debuted on March 23, 2012 (Wikipedia)

Heheheheh. Tudia pasal BTOB. Suddenly, starting to love them. Tak tahu kenapa. Sebelum ni tak pernah pun suka rookie. Andd.....diaorang baru debut tak sampai setahun lagi pun! Wehooo~ Memanglah. Dah nama pun rookie -.-' And my fav. song is FATHER!! HAH HAH HAH. Macam bagi inspiration untuk lebih menghargai my father gittew. So, saya nak memperkenalkan abang-abang kacak BTOB ni XD 

Tadaaaa~ The leader. His full name is Seo Eunkwang. Position in BTOB is ; Main vocalist and leader of course! :D

Lee Minhyuk! Bukan Kang Minhyuk. HAHAH. *tak kelakar pun doo* In charge for, vocalist, rapper, dancer, face of the group. Semua position lah ada dekat dia senang cerita.

The third is Lee Changsub. In charge for vocalist and....AEGYO! HAHAH. Even though dia bukannya maknae XD

Who is he? He is Lim Hyunsik. Heheh. In charge for vocalist and dancer. ;)

He is Shin Dong Geun. Or Peniel. Kenapa dia ada 2 nama? Haaaa. He was born in somewhere else kot? Bukan dekat Korea. And he is in charge for vocalist and dancer. Also a English speaker for BTOB.

Now, he is Jung Ilhoon. In charge for main rapper. Rap dia nak sama dengan Yong Junhyung I tell ya! Sumpah tak tipu. Muka dia pun nak sama dengan Junhyung Beast tu. Like sunbae like hoobae. Heheh. 

And he's coming~ last but not least. The maknae! Yook Sung Jae. Hihi. For me, muka dia ada iras Seo In Guk. Alah yang Reply 1997 tu. Doppelganger mungkin? Hahaha.

And now...who is my bias? Lemme give you a clue.

Whether Minhyuk, Sungjae and Peniel.

Haaaaa~ Tak payah nak teka sangatlah. The answer is......

Who is he? OF COURSE LEE MINHYUK. Wehoooo~ *clapclapclap* Saja nak bagi gambar bebanyak XD

And haritu kan, dorang datang Malaysia! Betul tak tipu!

Tadaa!~

And buat konsert dengan SJM & Exo. Tapi cari gambar time konsert dekat Malaysia tak ada. Sobs sobs. Ni pun dekat Thailand. Kot(?)

"You bad to me, so bad to me"

I bet, these 2 months are killing me. November and December. I didn't hate it though. Saya sebenarnya rindu si A dan si B. Last year I feel this pain because I miss si A so much. And this year I feel this pain again because of the same thing. Saya rindu si A dan B. Awal tahun ritu, saya berazam taknak rapat dengan sesiapa yang beza umur. Tapi saya degil...saya kawan rapat juga dengan si B. She was a good sister to me though.  But...it changed..a few weeks before school holidays. Saya tak tahulah kenapa. I asked si B. And she said, "Sorry sesangat sekarang *her names* dah sombong dengan Anis. Saya admit saya sombong. Busy sangat nowadays" Jadi saya pun okaylah. Maklum lah saya ni kan budak habis PMR. Semua form yang lain ada exam. Saya pun bagilah space dekat dia. Tapi yang saya pelikknya, kenapa dia mcm avoid dari saya? Saya tak tahulah si B ni buat-buat tak nampak atau memang tak nampak masa saya senyum and lambai tangan dekat dia. Biasalah, budak habis PMR kan..merayau satu sekolah je la. Dia lalu depan saya pun taknak pandang langsung. Tak silap saya saya tak buat  salah apa-apa pun. Saya tegur dia yang taknak layan. Salah siapa. My friends keep asking me "Kau dengan si B tak okay ke? Dulu bukan korang dua baik?" Saya nak jawab apaaa? Jadi saya pun jawab lah si B ni busy. Sebab tulah dia tak layan saya. And this one situation yang buat saya wondering sampai sekarang. We went to school with the same bus. Ada one time tu saya tegur si B ni dalam bus. Tapi...dia buat donno je. Lepas tu saya pun dah jarannnngggg nampak si B ni. Yesterday, I asked my friend "What will you do if you miss someone you used to talk? Tapi dia dah sombong sikit ah dengan kau. Macam uncomfortable around you. Buat kau macam strangers..What will you do? But you miss him/her so much" and he replied " Orang mcm tu kau takyah rindu. Dia sombong dengan kau kan. Just move on dude. Forget him/her. They hurt you. Its better these ways." Betul juga apa yang kawan saya cakap. You hurt me. Buat apa saya nak ingat si B. But..I can't. You must've a reason why you did this to me.


Psssssttt; I miss si A and B .

A Goodbye

" No matter how it hurts, it’s fine now, because I’m going to see you
Because I missed you so much during the time you were far away

The day when my heart flutters because I will get to see you in a while
The day when my lips naturally smile though my heart aches
The day when I no longer can tell you I love you
The day when we break up that makes my heart flutter like this
It’s just that I’m happy when I see you
I love you, I love you, I confess matching my steps

The day when my heart flutters because I will get to see you in a while
The day when my lips naturally smile though my heart aches
The day when I no longer can tell you I love you
The day when we break up that makes my heart flutter like this

There’s no need to feel hurt beforehand. Now I just love you like this
The day when my heart flutters because I will get to see you in a while
The day when my lips naturally smile though my heart aches
No matter how it hurts, it’s fine, I’m happy with this moment alone "

This song describe my feeling. I just want you to know. How much I miss you. I want you here. By my side. Everytimes. That means I need you everytime. I want to tell you everything about my life. Now you're faaaaaaarr away from me :(. Even that was not your fault, still, I want you.  Saya rindu nak dengar kakak saya bercerita panjang lebar pasal happy-day dia. Dia punya cerita panjang lebar yang sampai esok pun belum tentu habis. Saya rindddduuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.

Conversation.

We used to talk. Awak ingat lagi masa kita baru nak kenal? Saya tanya awak, nak panggil nama awak apa. Awak kata "panggil je****" "berkat sikit :D" Hahahah. Lepas tu awak tanya "Ni nak panggil apa pula? Nama bukan main panjang" saya jawab "sukahati awaklah nak panggil apa" then, awak cakap "panggil anis lah! comel sikit :3". Yes. I miss our silly conversation.  Now, we just a stranger. You know what? I keep stalking you. Everyday. But now, I have a little crush on you. Yes little. Dulu banyak. Sekarang sikit. Kenapa? Because you've change my feeling towards you.

Ex crushes.

Ehhh, PING PINGGGGGGG >,< Saja nak buat bising.  Actually i've something to luahkan. Yeah. About my ex crushes. Jangan nak fikir lain. Kita ada 3 je. And now, i've a little feeling towards my crush. LITTLE. Saya nak cerita yang ex crush saya yang first. Lemme give you a clue. Dia hitam. K bye. Dulukaaaannnnn, not so dulu lah. Masa first year 2012 dalam Jan till March macam tu la, I had a feeling on him. Saya suka dia sebab style rambut dia. Sumpah tak tipu. Sebab style rambut dia JE. After he changed his hair style, saya dah tak suka dia. Seriously teruk perangai. And, masa saya ada crush on him tu kaaannnn, dia sombong. Saya yang selalu tegur dia. Itu pun kengkadang. Lepas tu, dalam pertengahan bulan March rasanya, saya dah tak suka dia....sebab rambut dia. Lepas je habis mid term examination ritu tak silap saya, senang-senang lepas cuti 2 minggu bulan 6 haritu, we started our school back. Lepas je pada tu, dia dengan saya langsung tak keep in touch! Dia sombong. Saya sombong. Memang dua-dua sombong nak mati lah kiranya. Dulu after dah tak ada feeling dekat dia, we still keep in touch. Even, bukan hari-hari bercakap, but still, ada juga tegur-menegur. Ada one day tu, tetiba je dia tegur saya. Dia waved his hand dekat saya. Saya pun macam "Apahal mamat ni?" Jadi saya pun okaylah, kesian. Saya pun balas lah balik waved dia tu. After that day je, he keeps talking with me. Dia tegur saya. Dia jadi lain ahhhhhh. Saya pun macam pelik. Sometimes, saya lari bila jumpa dia. Seriously. And day by day, dia caring gila pasal saya. Tanya saya itu, ini. Okay tutup cerita pasal first crush. Now cerita pasal second crush. Crush saya kali ni hensem. Saya suka dekat dia sebab dia caring. Bukan caring pasal saya. Caring pasal semua orang. But, crush saya yang sorang ni, saya stay crush on him only for 1 month tak silap saya sebab masa saya suka dia, dia tetiba couple dengan someone else. Tapi relex. Saya tak heartbroken pun. Yela. Baru je suka dia. Tapi saya dulu tunggu je bila dia nak add saya dekat FB. Saya tunggu saya okay. Tapi dia tak add pun. Tak apalah. Saya pun dah tak suka dia. Pastu dah lamaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa berhenti berharap, ada one day tu, saya buka FB, dia ada add. And, for the conclusion, KENAPA MASA AKU TAK SUKA KORANG, KORANG BARU RETI NAK KEEP IN TOUCH?! Well. Masa dah tak boleh diputarkan. Saya dah tak suka baru nak berbaik-baik dengan feeling saya. And, i'll never fall in love with you guys again. Sobs. Dah lah. Benci koranggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg~

Problems

I just want to live happily without any problems with my family and friends. But, life isn't that easy for us kan? Allah selalu uji kita. Actually, saya ada keinginan. Keinginan nak tolong parents saya. Awak ingat saya tak sedih tengok ayah saya working really hard untuk anak-anak dia? Yes. Saya sedih. Sedih sangat. Keluarga saya bukan keluarga orang berada pun. Ayah saya dengan abang saya je yang kerja dalam rumah ni. Kadang-kadang saya nak minta duit yuran sekolah pun saya takut. Takut membebankan ayah saya. Ayah saya kena sara abang-abang saya punya kolej apantah lagi. Kakak & saya sekolah lagi. Barang rumah lagi. But he never sigh. Kadang-kadang saya rasa macam menyesal tak belajar. Tapi tula. Saya pemalas. Sangat malas. Baca buku tak nak PMR dah nak dekat. Selepas je incident kereta PAW remuk tu, i felt different. Kereta tak ada, so, saya dgn kakak pergi sekolah naik bas. Duit lagi. Next month, acik dgn abang masuk kolej. Duit lagi. Bulan september angah pula masuk kolej. Duit dan duit lagi. So, I told mama yang this raya tak payah beli baju raya semua. No need. Baju kurung yang beli saja-saja tu pun tak terpakai lagi. Tapi ayah tak nak. He wants the best for his family and children. He always wants us to look good in front of him. Saya pernah terfikir nak tolong ayah saya. Tapi saya sedar. Saya baru budak form 3. PMR pun tak lepas lagi. Saya tak boleh buat apa-apa. And I feel so bad. :"(

6 steps

For what saya nak merajuk dengan awak bila awak tak boleh datang rumah saya? Bak kata Eli, Kevin, and Alexander UKiss " We're just 6 steps away from the people in the earth! " Hello! Kita 6 tapak je. 6 tapak je saya dengan awak, saya dengan Taemin Yunyuk semua XD. Hihi. Lelebih pulak -.-

2 in 1

I MISS THE OLD US. Awak tahu kenapa? Sebab awak dah lain. Awak busy sangat nowadays. I GOT IT. But, dudeeeee. Could you spend sometime with me? Oh. Kira awak sibuk awak tak boleh spend your time with me lah? Well hello. Saya pun busy whatt. Saya kena study for PMR. Awak tahu tak? Saya tak study, tak ambil exam sebab kawad ritu and kena condemn dgn cikgu saya tau? Saya nak cerita dekat awak. Tapi awak mana ada text saya dulu. Kay. Am I being so childish? Yes. Im being childish with you. Only with you. Pergi tanya semua kawan-kawan saya. Ada saya suruh diaorang text saya? Ada saya suruh diaorang spend time dgn saya? Tak adakan? And, awak tahu tak? Saya nak mengadu something. K, Im starting being cheesy. Kesah pulak kan? Lantakkkk~ asalkan hati saya lega. Kesah apa. Last Friday before this holiday kan, kelas saya ada buat jamuan. Bukan jamuan lah. tapi ala-ala je. Cikgu kelas saya...ada bagi diaorang nasi lemak sorang sebungkus mcm tu. Di sebabkan saya ni bijak pergi kawad and tak ambil exam, saya pun pergilah buat exam tu dengan bersungguh-sungguhnya walaupun tahu tak boleh score A. At least saya berusahakan? Buat punya buat, nasib je sempat siapkan paper BM sebelum rehat. Saya dgn gembiranya pergilah rehat dengan kawan-kawan saya. Tetengok diaorang ada dapat nasi lemak sorang sebungkus. Pastu kecoh-kecoh la dalam FB yang dorang dapat makan nasi lemah sesuap je lah. Eh macha! Aku tak dapat tak kecoh satu apa pun. Kecoh sikit dkt blog. Kay, blog aku. Pastu ada one time tu....dorang buat birthday party dekat McDonalds. McD mana? Mana lagi kalau bukan Nilai. One day before birthday party tu, Nani ajak saya, pergi birthday party tu esok. Saya dengan tercengang-cengangnya tak tahu apa-apa. Pastu kena marah sikit dengan Nani sobs. Balik tu saya pun on FB. Tengok dekat group kelas, dorang dah borak-borak pasal birthday party tu. Awak tahu tak? Kadang-kadang saya rasa saya ni bukan kelas B. Saya kelas ABC. RASANYA. Tak pun pendidikan khas. Saya tak kesah pun pasal Nasi Lemak tu semua. Yang saya kecil hati sikit, kenapa saya dipinggirkan? Sebab saya turun kelas? Sebab saya selalu tak ada dalam kelas? ATAU SAYA MEMANG TAK DIPERLUKAN?!! Kay. Paham dah. Lepas ni kalau nak buat apa-apa pasal kelas tak payah ajak saya dah. :'(

My types? Hehe

Kweng kweng. Alah nak start bercerita mesti lah kena cecomel dulu kan? Hihi. So, recently, ramai yang tanya dekat aku " Weh, type yang macam mana kau suka?" Har har har. Mengada. Mentang-mentang lah aku tak pernah couple, kau menggedik nak tanya benda ni. Koaja. My type? Banyak weh banyaaaakkkkkkk. Meh sini aku introduce dekat kau bias-bias aku.

 Tadaaaaa. Park Sang Hyun a.k.a Chundoong a.k.a Thunder. Wonder why he has a lot of nicknames? Sebab dia awesome macam saya. EHH?!

2nd Lee Hyuk Jae. Why I choose him as my bias? He's witty. He's kind. He's cute Weee~

 How could I forget about this angel? Lee Taemin FTWWW!

His manly face could makes every single girl melts. Including me. Ahh Choi Seunghyun hyung~

Can't breathh! Kang Minhyuk sshi, can I just punch you face? hihi

Ahhhh. this 2PM's Big Brother! hehe. JUST. LOOK. AT. HIS. EYESMILE. Aigoo Kim Junsu oppa~

And how about this guitarist? Are you mad? No? HAHA. Ft Island guitarist, Choi Jong Hoon :D

So, now satisfied? I have wait wait wait. Lets count together.

♥ Mblaq's Thunder

♥ Super Junior's Eunhyuk

♥ SHINEE's Taemin

♥ Big Bang's TOP

♥ CNBlue's Minhyuk

♥ 2PM's Junsu

♥ Ft Island's JongHoon

  7 bias. hihi

Lies

Yeah. Aku boleh je cakap lepas aku dah tak suka ex crush aku tu hati aku dah tak tebuka untuk sesiapa. BOLEH JE. But yeah, this is kinda weird. This year bulan 1-2 aku TERsuka dekat kawan aku sendiri. No, he's my bestfriend I think. Masa first month masuk sekolah.. bapak cair bhai tengok dia. Rambut style baru. PERGH. Mengancam. But then, you broke my heart. Ahhhhh. Tapi nasib je aku tak benci kau. Nasib baik lah. Yang aku peliks tu the max nyaaaaaaaaaaaa, bila aku suka dekat kau, kita tak banyak ber-communicate. Lepas je aku dah tak suka dekat kau..HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA...Ambil kau. Hari-hari kau reti nak tegur aku. Ah. Babi betul. Maybe aku tak layak nak suka sesiapa. Auch. Eh pahal jejiwang malam ni? HAHHAHAH. Aaaaaaaahh, tak kesah lah. Yang penting tu cerita lama. Malu nyahhh ! :S